03 3 / 2013
Got pulled upstairs for my second talking too since Christmas at work. Supervisor Sarah ain’t doing to well. Doesn’t help that I haven’t had the support that I was promised after the first chat. I guess some people are always meant to be shit on. Seems I’ve got a decision to make.
07 2 / 2013
Don’t even use this thing anymore, just signed on for a whine, a money related whine infact. Currently wondering what the hell I’m doing wrong. I’m surrounded by people that spend ridiculous amounts of money on pointless shit, forever swanning about in new outfits and junk like that and I’m such a boring povo. My treat each month is a £20 Avon order, 20 shitting pound. Fair enough I have no over draft, no credit cards and no debts, what I have once my bills are paid is mine but there is very little of it to do anything with and it makes me hate living alone. I adore my place and don’t want to give it up after just 12months. I’m currently eating away at my savings each month just to get by and that isn’t what they are for, they are for big emergencies not for a weekly shop. I’m even jeopardising my own happiness and health staying in a position at work that makes me so unhappy at times I feel unstable, all for the sake of an extra £100 a month. I know, be thankful I have a job and all that, and I am honestly. I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do right now, how are people doing it? How are some just seeming to have no money worries at all when the rest us only just have enough go around? I just don’t get it. Blah
10 9 / 2012
I’ve had the most amazing weekend leading up to it with my best friends and my family, and have even more of it to come during this week. Currently having a massive freakout mind, caused by the delivery of the biggest flower arrangement I’ve ever seen to my front door. Completely overwhelmed and flattered but now I know that I have no choice now but to ask you to back off because it’s not you I want :s Piss. I should really, because you’re lovely but you’re not him, and it’s him that I love and always will. Yes I’m going to have to move on one day, but not right now and not with you. What a tit right? Gah at myself!
Anyhoooooo… I need air, so I’m off to town to pamper myself or some shit.